I want to say I'm sorry, but I can't. Maybe I'm a hopeless romantic guy. I really love her, so much. With all my heart. Every night, it's a battleground in my head. Whether to forgive myself and just move on, or there are other layers that I have not yet discovered. I really want her to come back. Maybe it's true, love does not have to have. I want her to shine. She's a diamond of her own league. She's cute. She's my smile. She's everything for me. Now I'm getting emotional ahaha.
My sense of romance isn't getting any better as the day goes by. Practice? That's probably the word. I need to do it. It's just, I couldn't understand her. I mean, I do have a sister. I should understand her a little bit; woman's world. Maybe much. But, like people say, everyone is unique. She's special.
I hope that she's smiling everyday; I know she's a tough one. She's an independent woman. Knowing that everything's gonna be alright. There's never a day without me thinking of her. Most of the time, my actions don't reflect what I really mean. That's where she or I mistook it with something else. It's the only thing that I can do now; hiking more and more mountains with endless stairs to her heart. I will survive. We used to call every week. Laughing our days to each other. Anyway, I miss her.
I've said sorry so many times; maybe too much. Maybe I've never learned a thing. Bad me. My heart was sore; she came and gently restored it. I love her so much. Honestly, I just want to be loved. I want to be hugged by her. I know I'll be alright in her arms. I'll (try to) be alright on my own arms. For now.
Adios!
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