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Do you ever feel like you have some symptoms? Well let me tell you what I think about it. Ever since I was a little kid I have been having this thing I don't know what but every time I do something on my right hand, my left hand has to do it too. Let's say I was just wiping off some dirt on my right hand, I would be mad and will always think that I should wipe my left hand too even though I did nothing on it. When I'm playing with my hand like what other children do (or probably not) I always want to make my hands move symmetrically like if the right hand goes up so does the left one. After years of NOT realizing what happened to me back then and what has always been happening to me, apparently it's called Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD). According to Google (if you search it up "OCD meaning"), 

It is an excessive thoughts (obsessions) that lead to repetitive behaviours compulsions). Obsessive-compulsive disorder is characterized by unreasonable thoughts and fears (obsessions) that lead to compulsive behaviours.

 

OCD often centres on themes such as a fear of germs or the need to arrange objects in a specific manner. Symptoms usually begin gradually and vary throughout life. Treatment includes talk therapy, medication or both.

    D*mn. My world collapsed. I did not know that a person like me have been living with such mental disorder. I've never been into a psychiatrist or something related to that but in my case it's not that bad I guess because I've read stories and articles about how people would repeat washing their hands FIVE times after eating or closing their bedroom door SEVEN times before leaving or turning the lamp off NINE times before going out (actually I forgot the exact number of how many they repeat their activity but you get the point). In my environment like family friends siblings colleagues etcetc I never knew someone that has this kind of behaviour. Maybe there is but they just didn't know yet.

    So to each and every one of you who is reading this now, find something that has been bugging you. Anything really. That might just be some syndromes or any kind of scary sh*t ahaha but I hope you the best of luck. I hope that I can go to a psychiatrist so that they can determine what is this behaviour that has been with me since I was born. We got this. I believe in you. Stay strong.

Adios!
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