Thoughts of a Man Called Aim

I've always thought that I'm an ambivert.      This is not without a reason. My mother used to tell me that I was a joyful kid; but, that only lasted till elementary school. She noticed something different from me then. Right now, in my 20s, I don't even feel like going out. I feel more alive when I watch movies, writing things down, read some books that I never got to finish, play games because it's sometimes therapeutic; just mindlessly spend the hours and days in front of my PC or contemplating life while laying down in my bed.      The first time I came across the word ambivert was during my early years of college. Way back before that, I consider myself an introvert. This is because once I'm home or my school/class ends, I just want to go home and have some peace in my room. Vibe to my music alone, singing and dancing just for the h*ll of it. Back in high school, I barely ever go to a party or anything related to it since there were so many invitation...

During my puberty , I could barely see any difference in terms of physical changes; comparing to my friends, especially girls. I'm friends with my junior high school till senior high school girl friends pretty much every one of them so I would  always meet them at a certain event or just when hanging around. One of the biggest changes that I notice is that their hip would look more structured. Like when they walk, their hips weren't used to be that "left-right-left-right" type of moving. They used to looked straight as in no curve whatsoever on the left and right side. Years after, I understand that those were probably vaginal bones since, well, they are women, they're gonna give birth so they surely will develop those bones. Or they have, but just not that developed. IDK. Breast, well, I can't really say much on this; but during elementary school, some of my friends have already grown their things and that's probably the first time ever I asked to my par...

Come to think of it, my family had a turtle . The story is quite funny. The first time I met him was when me and my family visited our grandparents from my father in the city. We visit our grandparents regularly every week and usually on the weekends. One day, my grandmother walked past the living room and went outside while holding some food. I don't remember what food it was but it was probably fruit. She was around 70 years old so she could only eat soft and not too sweet food. It was around 4 p.m. so the rest of the family was watching shows on TV in the living room. While we were watching, I was bored of the show, I wanted to check my grandmother and so I walked outside. My grandmother was there, throwing the food she brought earlier while also munching on some. At that time, I was like, "Grandma, why are u throwing the food?! You are wasting it!" and my grandma replied, "Come here, I'll show you something. Sit beside me here." We waited for a while, an...

One thing I've noticed and learned throughout the year I was absence from blogging/writing journal is that things tend to fall in terms of joyfulness and you will be blinded by things that are catching your eyes more than the mundane, repetitive things. Just pure plain, different from what you thought the first time you discovered it which you probably felt like "Oh! How come I just found out about this??? I would be doing this for my entire life!!!" kind of words.      Excitement. Novelty of things that are completely new. They often shine right off the bat but when you don't really have or set a goal/achieving something out of it you will be doing it lesser, lesser, and lesser, up until the point you don't even want to see or hear the name of it. Especially if you are like me, who is easily bored with stuff that I just can't see where would I be going/what I can gain in a very short time. Similar feeling to learning or do subjects that you are told and for...

I've always been interested in playing drum , rapping and explore new places in the open forest. It was around early high school year when I found out my life calling. Well not necessarily a calling, but I just know that that is just what I want to do in my life.      For me, I take hobbies as something that I do when I'm in my free time. It could be anytime like when I'm waiting for a meeting, on my way to somewhere using public transportation etc. Reading for example is like a habit of me, I read anytime I want but I also schedule the time for when I am going to read in a day so I'm not going to call it as a hobby.      I found out about drumming when I was jamming through Muse musics. Holy d*mn, their music is sooo good. I was listening to Stockholm Syndrome and didn't know what a music can do to your heart. It's just the usual Muse music, they leave the best part near the end, not in the middle or even at the start of the song. If you would, you shoul...

Bad things happen in our life, whether it's from our own actions or the universe conspiracies to make you suffer . Some say we can overcome all the obstacles we find on our way to achieve greatness if we believe hard enough that we could . It's not only about how motivated we are but also what strategy and what kind of resources we hold. Both can be from the help of colleagues or our own. Whatever is yours today, was somebody else's yesterday, and will be somebody else's tomorrow.  -Krishna, in Bhagavad Gita      Very wise words from my all time favourite philosopher. It means that we have to be grateful for what we have right now, like everything. Like, say, your clothes you are wearing right now, if it is made out of cotton, it was made by all the worms that worked hard to produce the cotton. Not knowing it will be taken from them just to fulfill humans need. Domestication. Wow this is probably too much for now but yeah you get the point. Say, your job right now, i...

To become a creative person you must be able to connect the dots . What dots? Your knowledge.       Remember The Martian movie? Just like the guy that recommended the ship to move around the earth and get the thrust so that they can go back to mars and meet the guy that was left in mars with using less fuel if they were to take a turn in the middle of the space without earth's gravity. Now IDK if that scenario would be possible in reality because I've never really understood the concept to get the thrust or whatever they were aiming to use to push the ship. If he didn't know about the gravity concept, he wouldn't know something can be done to help the situation and the movie will probably end up with them turning around in the middle of the space. So to be creative you gotta know and understand at least everything that is in line with the subject you are dealing with. In this case physics, aerodynamics, and some other things (don't quote me on this LOL).   ...